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I have definitely been sleeping oddly lately.

I thought I had pretty much kicked my insomnia but it seems almost like it has returned.  I can’t get to sleep until 1 or 2 am, then I struggle to wake up before 9am in the morning.  Today it was really bad- I was still asleep when the phone rang at 10:30 am, so I got up to answer the phone.  It was one of those reminder messages before a doctor’s appointment (I have an eye doctor’s appointment on Monday).  But after I hung up the phone, I laid down again, because I was still exhausted.  I lay there for another hour, on top of my bedsheets, with my eyes clothed, just laying there.  Finally I got up and got dressed, but it was NOT easy!

It’s frustrating, because I really thought I had kicked this insomnia issue.  But I’m very blessed in that my work can accommodate these things, so I can get through it.

Edit: I wrote this in bed last night but my blackberry was acting up.
-reasons I love being a freelance: I can lay in bed, in my pajamas, and write. I can watch a movie and write. I can sleep in on Monday mornings. When I have insomnia, I can get a little work done. This is definitely the life.


-Rimsy rocks. Rimsy.com- it’s made my life so much easier. Special thanks to Dae Punt for turning me on to Rimsy’s wonderfulness- I think his website is daepunt.com.


-my blackberry won’t reconcile or connect to the internet. I’m not even sure if this message will be sent. I hope the problem has resoved itself by morning.


-it’s hard to believe tomorrow is my birthday. It doesn’t feel like a special day. I mean, it’s my birthday but I still have lots of writing to do, just like any other day.


-i’m very thankful to report that I’m having another excellent week of income. I’m very blessed.


-i’m so excited by the things happening in my church right now! I need to figure out an interim design for our website, plus I’m doing slides and bulletin design. I’m also developing an exciting youth program. God is doing big things in Kansas City!


-i hope I can get plugged into my workout routine again soon. I don’t mean to complain but I am just SO TIRED of being sick! I’m feeling better but still a shade below 100%. I really hope this summer is healthier than this winter has been!
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I wasn’t scheduled to sub today.  I got a phone call around 7:30am asking me to sub in the preschool, which I turned down because, frankly, I don’t relish the idea of chasing three and four year olds all day.  As many times as I’ve been asked to sub for the preschool, though, I’m starting to wonder if I should reconsider.

Anyway, I forgot to set my alarm today (oops!), so after the groggy semi-conscious 7:30am call, I went back to sleep.  And I overslept.  A lot.

Since I overslept, I didn’t have a chance to go swimming today.  But that’s okay, since I suspect I was pretty sleep deprived.  I’ve been working ever since I woke up… trying to get lots of work done on my internet stuff while I have the time off.

Tomorrow I’m teaching fifth grade again, but a different class at a different school this time.  I also picked up a job for Thursday, teaching one of the business classes at one of the high schools.

• I know no one likes bullet points, but they’re just so easy!
• I am tired.  Super tired.  Unless for some reason I bounce out of bed at 7am rested and refreshed, I am not going to swim.  I am going to sleep instead.
• My car is done, FINALLY!!!  They had originally predicted that it would take about three hours to do today’s repairs, but it wound up taking SIX freaking long hours.  I surfed the internet on my laptop until my battery died, then I walked down the street to CiCi’s Pizza for lunch, then I came back to the dealership and waited around awhile longer until it was finally done.
• It cost $1200 to repair my car.  Poo.  That’s a lot of money.
• But at least my car purrs beautifully now!  Hopefully I can get another 100,000 miles out of it before I need more major repairs.
• I filled up my gas tank on the way home for $2.95/gallon.  It’s amazing how cheap gasoline can improve my mood.
• Yes, I watched the debate, but frankly I’m so fed up with the election and the politics that I just have no comment.
• I’ve noticed that when I’m tired, I am far less enthusiastic about maintaining this blog.  Guess that means I should go to bed sooner…
• I can’t think of anything else to say tonight.  But undoubtedly I’ll think of plenty more while I get my beauty sleep.
• Seriously, what do you think of these bullets?  Do you love them?  Hate them?  They’re ridiculously easy, and I might use them in future posts.

I have this thing.  This really strange love/hate relationship.  It’s a love/hate relationship between myself and my mornings or evenings.

I love mornings.  I wake up and everything seems so perfect.  It’s the time when nothing has happened to spoil the day yet.  The morning is so full of promise, the future of what wonderful things could happen today.

But I hate mornings too.  I wake up, and I feel so good, just laying in bed and savoring the beauty of the day.  I feel so good that I stay in bed, with my covers tucked around me.  I ignore my alarm clock and inevitably, I oversleep.  Eventually I get out of bed and kick myself for not getting up sooner.

I love evenings.  I love the peaceful feeling of laying in the dark and letting go of all my worries.  I love the hope of tomorrow.  I lay in bed and think, “TOMORROW will be the day!”  Tomorrow will be the day when I begin all those things I’ve been meaning to do.  Tomorrow I will eat right, and I will exercise, and I will design a whole new theme for this website.  Tomorrow!

But I never do any of those things.  And I hate the discouragement that the new day brings.

I find strange things when it’s late and I’m awake.  I found this a couple of nights ago, and saved it to share.

In Vietnam, a man named Thai Ngoc is presumably a record breaking insomniac.

This man is most famous for his claim of being awake for 35 years.  However, he refuses to leave his village or be taken abroad for testing, so this claim is obviously suspect.

I think I am developing full blown arachnophobia.

That’s “fear of spiders”, for all of you out there who need to brush up on your Latin.

Some of you may recall my experience with insomnia and spiders a few days ago.  It was very strange and VERY frightening.  I concluded that the spider in that experience was a wolf spider, a large, ugly, but generally harmless spider.

Last night, just before I went to bed, I used the restroom.  As I sat on the toilet, I looked up and noticed something sitting on the towel.  It was either a spider or a very strange lump of brown lint.  I finished up and approached the towel with a lump of toilet paper in my hands.  Sure enough, it was a large brown spider.  I looked at it a bit more closely, then reached out and attempted to grab it in the toilet paper.  He was a FAST little sucker, and got out of the way.  Eventually I had to shake out the towel to find him, and I managed to trap him between my toilet-papered fingers.  I looked a bit closer at him before I squished him.

I’m 99% sure it was a brown recluse.  I killed him with no troubles- no bites.  But I’m totally freaked out now.  When I went to bed, I tossed and turned because I was so convinced that I had spiders crawling on me.  And brown recluse spiders are venemous!

I’m definitely freaked out now.

Warning: Moderately icky post.  Read at your own risk.

Last night, I couldn’t sleep.  I lay in bed, wide awake, wondering why I was awake, and quietly praying, “Lord, I HAVE to get some sleep!” because I have a doctor’s appointment this afternoon, and of course I wanted to be somewhat awake.  But no matter what I did, I couldn’t sleep.

I tossed and turned for literally hours.  Just after 3:30am, I was lying on my back with my right arm lying above my head on the pillow.  I felt a little tingling on my right hand, but at first I ignored it.  I have long hair, and last night I had turned on the fan in my bedroom, so it wasn’t uncommon for a stray hair to tickle an arm or hand.  When the tingling persisted, I reached up with my left hand to brush away the hair.  So imagine my surprise when I felt something solid under my fingers!  I picked it up between my thumb and forefinger, and reached above me with my free hand to turn on the light.  It was then that I saw, between my fingers, a good-sized and (understandably) icky spider.  The body of the spider was at least a quarter-inch in diameter, and including the legs the spider was more than an inch and a half in diameter.

In the back of my mind was the urban myth about eating spiders in your sleep.  Now, I know this isn’t true, but given the circumstances I was grossed out nonetheless.  I snatched a kleenex from the box next to my bed and squished the spider in it for all I was worth.  I suspect it was a Wolf spider, a common type of spider here in Missouri, but frankly when a spider disturbs me at 3:30 in the morning, I’m less concerned with identifying the species than with getting rid of it!  I know there are some “be kind to animals” people out there, also, who “release” insects back outside instead of killing them.  When I’m feeling generous, I release insects outside.  But again, quite frankly, when a spider disturbs me at 3:30am, I think the spider has sacrificed any personal rights it may have.

Once the spider was gone, I lay back down in bed and attempted, again, to go to sleep.  But now, every little tingly thing I felt creeped me out.  I had to fight the urge to swat at every tingle I felt.  Now I was tossing and turning just to keep the creepies away.

I got to sleep eventually- it must’ve been well after 4:30am.  But I only got a couple of hours of sleep last night.  I’m tired, of course, but maybe for the first time in my life I’m thankful for my insomnia.  I don’t even like to THINK about spiders crawling on me while I am asleep.

I’m up late. Right now, Jeff Paul’s shortcuts to internet millions infomercial is on TV.

I’m a tad jealous. I only wish it was that easy to earn internet millions!

I’m only consoled by the knowledge that it’s a scam, and that those people will lose more money than they earn with this shortcut to internet millions.

Tonight, “Jeff Paul’s Shortcuts to Internet Millions” will earn you thousands of dollars. Just give him money, make a few clicks of the mouse, and you’ll be earning thousands of dollars every day without lifting a finger.

Ahhhh, Jeff Paul, I sure wish it was that easy. I earn my money on the internet – but I have to work for it. And I’ve NEVER made “thousands of dollars” in a single day.